WHY WILT A WALLFLOWER
by Amy Sue Jackson
Released: December 4, 2018
Genre: Abuse, Memoirs, Autobiographies, Psychological, Non-Fiction
Amy Jackson is a young woman desperate for a way out of her abusive childhood family.
When her father takes her out for a fun, music-filled ride and says, “People will think you are a freak if you go to the police.” Something inside of her snaps, like a femur against a slugger’s bat.
Amy is determined the justice system will make her family answer for the abuse she suffered. Quickly, Amy discovers a law system that downplays child abuse.
Her college church gives her the support she needs as she risks losing the only family she has known.
Why Wilt a Wallflower? is a memoir of strength and resilience.
With no regard for my feelings, mother repeatedly said, “You could be pretty if you’d just try a little harder.” I struggled to feel good in my skin. Mom’s hurtful words ate away at my confidence, like a cancerous tumor, that engulfed my body more with every callous word she spoke. I stooped, wore loose-fitting clothing, and evaporated like snow on a mild day. Mom on no occasion allowed me to dress how I preferred to. I wanted the cute outfit from the helpful salesgirl. I knew I looked as good as I felt when I wore that ensemble. My thoughts dashed, “You could be pretty if you just try a little harder.” I attempted to forget this phrase, but it echoed in my head comparable to a broken doll, that says the same slogan over and over. My mind pondered, “Why doesn’t my mom like me?”
True stories like this one are always so very hard to read, not knowing how you will react to someone else’s pain. As a reader, you read books to escape into a better world or at least something that has a good guy winning at the end, right?! For the stories like Jackson’s Why Wilt a Wallflower, it is quite plausible to say that it does get better, but it is nowhere near enough for the pain and fear that a lifetime endures—and there we’d like to say that the good guy did win by surviving. This author draws the reader in to a haunting story, a true story, about a little girl who grew up believing a lie.
Amy begins her life story as a young girl and quickly moves into adolescent years. That is when everything starts. As she is told time and time again by her parents that she is just not good enough, not pretty enough, never enough to match their standards, this slowly starts to chip away at a youth’s mind fairly easily. Children are so fragile, but teenagers are even more susceptible to peer pressure and self-esteem or degradation. Getting past these years is never easy, but for Amy—it was near impossible. As the youngest child, her older brother was always the apple of their parents’ eye and apparently could do no wrong. Until the day he did. He did the most unthinkable thing to someone who put all of her trust into him. And—now she is forced to relive this tale while writing this story—in the hopes that readers will speak out and help her convey a message. A message about abuse for all of the men, women, and children who suffer and do not get help or speak their truth to someone, anyone—about the monsters of the world. Another few things to think about is that life moves on, even if the pain doesn’t. As it does, we learn to deal with the pain so that it appears the lesser than originally dealt. Being a survivor doesn’t mean that it goes away, it means that it came, held us down for a while, but we got back up and fought.
Jackson writes in first person since the story is about her and a haunting past. The pace is very quick and the story is short, making it an easy read. The author does inform the reader that all names and places have been concealed to protect her identity; however, all accounts are true and told to the best of the author’s ability as memory serves. Since this is a true story, the credibility factor is absolute and unwavering. There have been several stories that we have read—along with personal experience—enough to assimilate truth to these words. Every story may involve the same grains of monstrosity, but the way that we all handle the pain, grief and indifference will always be slightly different while still holding on to similar signs of trauma. After reading this story, readers will be moved—may even be moved enough to become an advocate—but needless to say, it is a story worth reading. For any readers who generally find themselves in the autobiographies, memoirs, and psychological non-fiction areas, you may try this one.
A physical copy of this book was provided to Turning Another Page by the author and in no way affects the honesty of this review. We provide a five-star rating to Why Wilt a Wallflower by Amy Sue Jackson.
Amy Sue Jackson is a writer, singer, and songwriter. Her memoir, Why Wilt a Wallflower, is an honest account of surviving sexual abuse at the hands of her brother, plus the aftermath of reporting her brother to the police as a young graduate student.
Amy holds a doctorate in pharmacy and worked several years as a community pharmacist. During her time working as a pharmacist, Amy also completed a professional recording of original music under the stage name, Zaba Grace. More recently, her focus is on photography and building and customizing Gundam plastic model kits with her partner, Ion Garcia.
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